10DPO

I am getting worried. Very worried. I am worried that this IVF did not work. That yet another one will have failed and I'll have to face the big decision of what to do next. Well, it's not that big of a decision at all really. I know I want to cycle one more time. The problem is I'm seriously freaked out about going to NY again. People at work are going to be very suspicious of me going up there for another jaunt. I'm just not sure I can swing the time. It's going to be hard to arrange. Not to mention all sorts of expensive and difficult.

AND I have to go on a serious diet if this IVF failed. I have been bad again. I daren't weigh myself as I'm sure I'm above my previous all time high. I had been hoping I could just maybe not gain weight during the first trimester, then after the birth somehow breastfeed for like 15 years and lose the weight that way. But if it doesn't work then I need to have my jaws wired shut or something. A few of the girls at work are trying that liquid only "lose 21 p.oun-ds in 21 d.ays" diet. I might have to jump on the bandwagon just to get some of the pudge off. Not looking forward to that.

Oh well. I went for my progesterone test this morning at the local RE's. Big clinic does 'em on 10DPO and 12DPO and 14DPO (that last one along with the beta). But they don't tell you the results, which is fine by me. Unless of course they call up in a panic and tell me to start shooting up 4mg of PIO an hour or something. Which I doubt they'll do, so it's all a bit academic really.