Reassured

Last night's email from the RE reassured me on the protocol. He didn't say this, but it seems that most women get only 2-3 embryos because the women that get put on this protocol are essentially candidates for donor eggs. I think this is the protocol of last resort. Or one of them, at least. So most women going on it are poor responders to start with. He said it won't reduce the number of follicles, but will help the cohort to grow more evenly - which is exactly what I need. So if it's a cycle where I was going to get 14 eggs, I'd still get 14 eggs (hopefully). But hopefully more of them will be mature than on other cycles - which would be huge for me. I mean, it's kind of disappointing to have only 50% of the retrieved eggs being mature. I dream of having like 12 mature out of 14.

He also said that sometimes it is worth doing CGH with only 2 or 3 embryos, especially in a woman with a lot of IVF failures or miscarriages. It can be worth finding out the answers as to what is really going on. And they are finding that the CGH normal embryos DO survive the thaw. The theory is, if it's normal, it'll make it to blast and through freezing. If it doesn't make it, it wasn't normal to start with.

So, I think I may sign up for the study. I mean, it is cheaper for me to do the study than not do the study if I end up doing 2 cycles (and let's face it, that's more likely than not). So I just have to take the risk of transferring nothing and essentially being no worse off than transferring abnormal embryos and getting a BFN, but having answers as to exactly how chromosomally crap my embryos are. It's a bit of a mental leap, but there's something that makes me think I shouldn't pass up the chance to get this testing done for free.

ETA: No, wait, I changed my mind again. I'd rather put back all embryos than risk having nothing to transfer or damaging them. Argh. Why do I keep spinning around on this? Damn it, this FET better work because this is too hard to figure out.

ETA again: After the edit above, I shot an email off to Dr. F. asking whether I could back out of the study based on embryo numbers, and he just replied and said I could.  So we could agree that I would transfer all back if I have say 4 or fewer embryos, and do the CGH if I have 5 or more.  That makes me feel better and less worried about the whole thing, but I must admit I am having panicky feelings all of a sudden.  I mean, it's Las Vegas Clinic!  The reasons I hated them in the past are all still there.  The thought of deciding to do this is stressing me out.   Maybe I am not yet over my love affair with New York Clinic, although frankly doing the same exact protocol again is underwhelming to say the least.