Holy Fucking Crap

The RE just called with the CGH results. Yup, they did them within a week, which is amazingly fast.

ALL the embryos were hopelessly abnormal, each with multiple problems. In fact, just so you know how bad they are, here's the results:

Embryo 1: trisomy 1, 6, 8, 12, 18 (trisomy meaning 3 copies of the chromosome instead of 2).
Embryo 2: trisomy 1, 8, 16, 19, 20, + monosomy 18 (monosomy meaning 1 copy of the chromosome instead of 2).
Embryo 3: trisomy 12, 20, monosomy 2, 13.
Embryo 4: trisomy 4, 19.
Embryo 5: trisomy 1, 3, 19, monosomy 2.

Holy crap indeed. No wonder I wasn't getting pregnant. These are appallingly bad results, although I did ask them if they were spectacularly bad and he said that they are finding that where embryos are abnormal there are usually multiple issues with them. So he didn't seem that surprised.

I am seriously bummed. I mean, god, I expected maybe a trisomy 21 or something but having one embryo with 6 chrosomomal errors out of 23, and having the best one with 2 errors is quite sobering.

Needless to say, he suggested donor egg.

I said I'd signed up for the two cycle plan, and I intended to do both of them with my own eggs, then would stop. So he's going to think up what we can do differently with the drug protocol, and we will talk again on Tuesday to see what ideas he has.

Fuck.

But hey, at least CGH did its job, right? I got some answers. Boy, did I get some answers.