Friday, May 04, 2007

58.9

58.9

That's the number that is going around in my head today. That is the number that will spell doom and gloom for at least the next few weeks, possibly for the rest of my life.

58.9

I got a copy of my lab report sent by Big New Clinic, and it arrived in the mail yesterday. This is the value for my hep C test. Less than 1 is negative. I'd been reading how less than 3.5 is very often a false positive, whereas over 9.9 is 95% certain to be a true positive. So of course, I assumed that my result would be 3.4, or heck, maybe 5.6 or something. You know, something nice and low that would reassure me that this would just be a silly false positive. Because how can I have hep C? I have done NOTHING risky since the last two negative tests. NOTHING. N.O.T.H.I.N.G.

But it came back at 58.9. There go all my hopes of it being a false positive. Well, I can hope to be in that 5% but really, since when have statistics gone my way lately?

Fuck.

9 comments:

serenity said...

*hug*

I wish I had words to make it better. Know I'm thinking of you and hoping SO hard that you end up in that 5%.

Jade said...

I am so sorry - I know how upsetting health news like this can be when you are trying to conceive.

How much must you endure before it gets easier? or will it get easier.

How about, it must get easier.

Jade said...

Is there a possibility that you could have contracted this from the donor semen?

Horrible thought,

Rachel said...

I'm so sorry. That is terrible. I hope you can be treated easily.

katty said...

I'm so sorry that you are having all this bad news Sarah. It is incredibly unfair. K.

Marie-Baguette said...

I am so sorry. I did some research and there are lots of ways to catch it, including pedicure/manicure
http://www.hivandhepatitis.com/hep_c/news/2007/121206_c.html

Thinking of you

Anonymous said...

Sarah,

Is there anyway you can go to your local family doctor and have the test redone? It does sound odd that you have no risk factors for the infection but it's cropping up all of a sudden now.

Perhaps another lab would put your mind at ease.

Rae

Aimee said...

Sarah-I am so sorry. ;o( You are not even considered in the "high risk" catagory either. Anyway, I am thinking about ya and hope things start going your way. They jut have too! *hugs*

calliope said...

well fuck!
I am just now sort of kind of getting my head out of the sand & this is SO not the stuff I want to read.
ahhhhh!

I am freaked that such a thing can be caught so easily, but seriously hopeful that a retest will show you are in the clear...what madness.
xo