It isn't until you are stretched to your limit that you suddenly realize the real virtue of rest and relaxation. And, basically, I haven't had any for weeks until the last couple of days. I managed to rest a little bit on Sunday, and then today I "worked" at home while some workmen were here. I did a little work, a little study, and a little lazing around. And I feel like I can suddenly think again, and maybe feel somewhat normal. Although I still think I could sleep for a week. And I only managed this by going in to work at 6pm on Saturday night, and by getting up at 5am this morning to clean. Yes indeed. Such is my life.
Except that it all starts again tomorrow and I will go back to crushing exhaustion until Spring Break which doesn't start until April 18th.
So, I'm sorry I haven't been reading or commenting on blogs. Or emailing. Or updating here. Or cleaning my house. Or getting my hair cut. Or doing any number of things that I should do. And I've even been having thoughts about shuttering this blog and saying farewell on the basis that my ramblings are of no interest at all to anyone interested in infertility or single motherhood by choice. It's nothing personal, you understand. Just 32+ hours of work + 24 hours of school + 10 hours of driving + 4+ hours of exercise + 5+ hours of studying + laundry + food shopping + cooking + eating + minimal cleaning + god knows what else = exhaustion.
But strangely, I'm having fun. I can do it, provided that I can catch a mental health day every now and then.
4 comments:
Don't give up the blog just yet. I want to see how school goes and what decisions you make about your quest for motherhood.
Hang in there!
no shutting down please!
so you don't often update- you are still one of THE most wonderful & interesting people I know and I would cry buckets if I couldn't come to your blog to keep up with you.
No, no shutting down allowed (unless it's a mental health break - those are always allowed.) Seriously, I am always reading, even if I am bad about remembering to leave comments. I'm enjoying reading about your school journey.
I'd hate to see you go, but I know people move on. I think it is really positive to have a blog from someone who had done that elusive thing, gotten on with life after IF, and to really see that there is life after IF.
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